I miss him today. More than usual, no particular reason. I just do. Sitting on the freeway, waiting for it to be “my turn” remembering him saying that its motion activated, silly stupid things like that. I just miss him today.
I cried today, my seven year old gave me a hug and said it was OK, he missed him too. Children are very intuitive. I am not looking forward to His baby girl starting kindergarten without him there. That is so hard to even think about. I’m sad today. I just sometimes want his arms around me more than I want to take my next breath. I want to feel him with me, i want to not be here without him. But I am. I am here without him. Trying to find the strength to take another step forward. The strength to keep going. Taking one day at a time, accepting hardship as a pathway to peace. That is what I’m clinging to today.
I miss him today.