New Beginings

Door

We moved. The last place where “we” were is now gone. We have a new house, a new place.

Your little man, Ethan, ran his very first half marathon. HE WAS AMAZING. 2 hours 26 minutes, he ran 13.1 miles. He’s only nine babe!!!! You would be so proud. My dad ran with him. He said he cried the last 2 miles, saying I just wish my dad could see me. I wish so bad you could of.

Tonight Christian said he wonders if there is a cloud in heaven where you can watch us and see our new home. We miss you.

Life keeps spinning, we keep getting older, we keep moving on, and on, and on. You’re not. You are gone.

I say that a lot, its just hard for me to believe sometimes. Its hard for me to wrap my head around the fact that you’re gone.

Life just keeps spinning.

I don’t even know how to explain it sometimes. My heart and head are so full of emotion. There is no expressing it.

I miss you. I love you. I’m happy. I’m thankful. I’m in awe. I’m sad. I hurt. I want to sing. I want to cry. All at the same time.

Our children, every time they do anything, I wish you could see. Loretta, our baby, sings “let it go” which… that just made me realize, you never watched frozen. You never got to sing it with us. Its your baby girls first song. “Let it Go”

All our happiness is mixed with sadness.

I wish you could see us now.

Maybe you can.

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