You are gone.

I had a good day today, and I forgot you weren’t around – I dialed your number to talk to you.  Of course you weren’t there.

You are gone.

Our Baby girl stood alone today, I wanted to tell you, I forgot for a moment that I was alone.  I wanted to tell you but I couldn’t.

You are gone.

Music camp, smiles, hugs and words.  All I wanted to say, I wanted to share these moments with you, but I cant.

You are gone

Our sons are growing, they are getting strong.  I was thrown into the pool by them!!!  You would of been proud, but you’re not.

You are gone.

At night I turn to kiss you, and instead I see our daughter.  She sleeps with me now.  She too feels the weight, the knowledge of simply knowing.

You are gone.

Tears they fall, sometimes I yell.  I go to lean on you for support, to help raise up these precious kids, but I already know and am beginning to understand. I’m alone.

You are gone.

Gone to where the angels dance, the music plays and there is no pain or tears.  Gone up to heaven and here we cry, here there are lots of tears and lots of pain.  We cry, the ones you once held dear.

You are gone.

I miss you so much sometimes, the tears they well up, my throat gets tight and I feel like I cant breathe.   I hide them with a smile and drink my coffee hiding behind the smile and brave persona I wear.  Its a second skin to me now, the one I put on because you.

You are gone.

I miss your smell, I miss your kiss.  I miss your laugh and your smile.  I miss knowing that you are there.  I thought you always would be.    I miss you.

You are gone.

I remember you, sometimes I cry, sometimes I laugh.  I remember who you were, and that you are now in the past.  I remember that you are no longer in my future.    I miss you.

You are gone

I’m doing well baby.  I love my job, our kids are growing, our baby started walking.  I have enough to make it – enough love enough smiles, enough money and even time.  The only thing I’m missing baby is you.  Everything is ok here.  I’m even kinda happy.  There is just one thing that makes me sad, one thing I cant seem to get past.  Its you baby.

You are gone.

I miss you baby, I love you, I will always love the one who is now

gone.

 

 

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